Journal Entry: Fri Feb 15, 2013, 8:21 AM
And I KNOW I don't have to apologize for it, but I'm sorry anyway. Since joining Facebook last month, I've taken to making much smaller announcements that I didn't think "journal-worthy" on their own (and if they're very small announcements, Twitter as well). Lately, I just haven't had a lot of BIG things to say, but now that the little things have accumulated (and I haven't posted some ramblings in ages), I've decided to fill in the rest of you who either don't follow me or don't want to be on Facebook.
The one thing I guess I have told you folks is that I'm officially going fulltime starting next week (although I've been going out presenting female a lot this week, so it really is all but official). One of the big reasons is based on a somewhat awkward realization I made a few weeks ago. See, I've been wearing my hair in a ponytail pretty often for the past few weeks. But the weird thing is, when I do, and I see myself in the mirror, I swear I see my sister from 13 years ago. I mean, on the one hand, it's pretty cool, 'cause it means I look like a girl even to my hyper-critical eye. On the other hand, it's weird, 'cause I look like my sister. No idea how awkward that's gonna make things with my family (especially my sister, whom I've never come out to). But I digress. Odd as it is, this is a really a good thing.
That aside, I just feel... ready.
I'm not gonna lie; I'm scared scared as hell. But at the same time, I'm really excited. Yesterday, I went on a shopping trip by myself to pick up some new clothes (got 3 shirts, a skirt, pajamas, socks, shoes and some other things), and I didn't get clocked once to the best of my knowledge. It was just a fabulous day. In fact, the more I look back on it, the better my time was. It sounds silly, but I think it was the most fun I've had in a very long time... and I kinda wish I could just do it again today, honestly (still kinda wish I had a bit more in the way of girl clothes; I'll manage for now, but I don't have the kind of money to be doing things like this all the time). And yes, there will be pictures (I'm 5 months on hormones as of next Monday anyway), but I'm waiting for my new glasses to come in too. ^_^
In other news that isn't transition-related, I'm officially going to my first convention. I just pre-registered for Genericon (March 1-3) today. I won't be at a panel or table or anything; this is just going for the sake of going (although, I will probably spend a lot of time around the sellers to see how other people do things and how I should). Anyway, it's in Troy, NY. I don't know if anyone I know here happens to be close enough, but if you end up going let me know. I'd be happy to meet with one of you elusively awesome people I know only from the internet. And I'll keep a pen on me; if you go, and you happen to have a copy of "Rain - Volume 1", I will absolutely sign it for you. ^_^
And there was another thing I wanted to say - and so typical of me - I forgot it. I'll just edit this later, if I have to.
Later, boys and girls. ^_^
Listening to: Delta Goodrem
Playing: Persona 4 Golden